Your Reflection

It's time for you to tune into the reflection of you- your nature - through the external mirror of nature the world around you according to the perception and the meaning you allocate.

Go outside to a place where you feel connected. To a place where the universe flows through you and you feel like you are a part of everything.

Collect 7 items that you feel drawn to. Don't question. Note the order in which you collect

Describe in detail each item
Tune into the description and articulate the significance for your story right now. Then note what the message is from each item.

Each item will relate to each area of life.

Finance where you value earn save create cushions invest and risk external resource

Physical where you do the same internally and around you

Knowledge where you collect information that influences internally what you create and express

Community where you influence externally build connections like bridges to feed business and relationship

Business the vehicle for external relationships where you serve in the value of resource internal and external utilizing the value of ur internal and external communication and connection

Relationships where you connect mirror and serve internally

Spiritual the structure of your beliefs your perceptions and your stories that fuel all of the above experiences in resource connection and communication

everything is
Exchange
Trade
Currency


Aristotle noted how our perceptions of our nature was a reflection of the nature all around us and the structures we put into place and subsequent behaviors that followed were based on this hermetic principle. As without so within. As above so below.

We can google anything these days. Information about all the how tos of business, marketing, finance, relationship, community, education, health and belief structures is freely available for all.

We can craft a vision of what we desire in our lives we can set up the fantasy of this vision and we have access to every single action step that is required to make that fantasy a reality. Yet time and time again the oscillation of the stories that we identify with hook us into behavioral patterns that are strategically buried so deep that we no longer consciously know which story is driving which behavior or perception.

The higher part of us expertly creates external circumstances to give us the opportunity to rewrite these old stories. So like Joseph campbells Heros journey our stories give us opportunity to face dragons cross thresholds and follow calls to action.

Some stories like health or finance the resource in our lives for without either it is challenging to move out of mazlows survival part of the pyramid, these stories are powered with urgency and propel us out of the much coveted love tos that new age culture indoctrinates us about into have tos.

Before enlightenment chopping wood carrying water
After enlightenment chopping wood carrying water

Imagine our body without all it's systems? One big blob of jelly. I imagine that that is us when we face our dragons and our stories. We cant function. We focus on the pain perception of what we think we know of our stories and we forget about the ease. We still have to chop wood so this is the time to put a structure in place.

We can judge anything as good or bad yet they are simply all structures designed to provide certainty significance growth variety comfort safety -  everything that is deemed healthy and sensible can be gained by every experience.

Conservation of all traits and dynamics

So we while we face the dragons of old stories and rewrite footprints in the sand we still have to chop wood and carry water.

Know what's important to you
Link the benefits of the action steps required to get you from fantasy to reality to what's important to you.

The stories that you market on the surface will not be the driving forces behind the choices you make in the action that you take. They are the camouflage. When we blame others we are the child in our own story. When a story about other people is told again and again this feedback that the story is based on perception of an experience between birth and eight years of age.

We will always have a story told by our child. Conserved. Child like wonder is one story. Innocence in no sense in no judgement.

Shame is feedback for an important story. We measure ourself against someone else's standards values and ultimately story.

Shame and Blame hold much power. That's power we can use to fuel our action steps.

So this is our process

What do we perceive that we value now
What is the vision for our life
What is the action that we need to take
What are the oscillating stories that stop our action
What are the advancing stories that fuel our action
Create a structure to chop wood and carry water while we face the dragons of our stories to dissolve shame and blame and transform oscillations into advancement all the while valuing and appreciating that oscillations are important functions of everything in nature.

 We keep telling it and maintain our behavior accordingly then we don't dissolve that shame. It continues to run our lives. It holds it's power. Yet if we trust ourselves enough to be stripped bare

One Side at a time

It's like whenever I make a statement I am only ever really showing one side at a time. To answer completely is almost schizophrenic as there are so many voices with opinions on every single subject.

I change structure and it is like moving furniture around and it doesn't stop the longing. My question is - what the hell is the longing and will it ever go away? Do you feel like that too? My heart is constantly wanting to be in three different places and a big part of me believes that if I lived in Italy and New York I would STILL long for something else. 

Are we designed to long always ? Is it possible to ever feel complete and at ease and in the right place? OR is there something wrong with me? Am I the only person who feels so incomplete and so wistful about the things that she wants but never feels like she can go after them otherwise so many people will be hurt and maybe just maybe I shouldn't trust myself?

So many programs tantalize us with slogans of following our hearts however do they actually work or are they designed for income as all business is and we put our trust and faith consistently in an external source in order to find our answers?

And as I write this all the voices with other opinions scream at me that what I just wrote isn't the whole story.

Ok everyone - only one side of me can feel fucked up at a time - take your turn! :-)

Yet I Am

I don't have time to feel that right now so I'm putting it away somewhere safe well secured and out of mind while I focus on what's more important - my business, my family, whatever drama is unfolding around me. As long as I feel needed. As long as I feel as if I have a purpose, I am ok. Putting out bush fires is second nature and the hit I get instead of caffeine or sugar.

I have fueled my body for the short term lurching from crisis to crisis justifying that there is no time for my body as this other drama holds far more value. So nutrition and core strength exercise consistently building to value my body longevity has been easily dismissed in the "I'm strong I can put myself last again this thing deserves more attention than me. I am more powerful than most people. My super powers keep me alive so I can keep others alive. (with the dangerous unsaid sub text always hanging in the air mocking all around) My body has kept me alive. The masculine hero on the white horse rescuing me from fire flood disaster time and time again. Shifting physical molecular breakdown centimeter by centimeter year by year through all the physical systems each sharing the burden of my defiance until one by one they stop no longer able to find that sliver of movement to carry just one more thing.

My whole being is heavy in burden. I carry the weight of the world and I display my feat for all the world to marvel and admire. "I don't need assistance like everyone else does. I'm not a victim. I'm self sustaining. I'm not a burden on my family community or society."

Yet I am.

Everything I have judged about others viewed as weaker than I am - starting and ending with my mother - I am the same.

My expression is secreted under layers of control holding my shame and pain deep within so no one sees just how much sacrifice I make.

To The Girl In Recovery

Go where the energy flows.....

Don't try to change anything

Let it be as it is

If you judge it then you miss the value of it.

Allow whatever happens to be the right thing as you cannot change it and have no control anyway
Be in the moment of whatever presents itself.
Resistance is wasted energy and you miss the good stuff while resisting anyway If it doesn't happen it's not supposed to happen.

Everything that occurs gives you incredible feedback
Trust that you will be ok no matter what...

How you are right now is how you are right now so you may as well just love it now as it is presented to you. In the end you have to appreciate it to survive it anyway so save yourself some time and just love it right now as it is.

Find the ease in this experience.

Find the ease on your life as it is right now.

You choose where your energy goes. If it doesn't feel right for you you don't have to do it.
Not ever.
Trust yourself.
We all die at some point.
It's what we do between birth and death that counts.
So make every moment count
and.....
Have faith that you WILL recover from this.....

Efficient Body

Pain is an indication of stored up unused suppressed energy.

Emotions that have been unsaid and unexpressed.

Shame that has been hidden.

Blame that has been pushed away to be stored and used later.

Emotions not felt are like toxins. 

My body is very effective at keeping them away from my organs. 

It senses the danger to the whole system so it stores them in fat.

THERE HAS TO BE MORE

There has to be more. 

Baubles shiny to distract are no longer enough. 
I am different OR am I on another frequency and they are as well in another form? 
Retail doesn't fill the void - jewelery, 5 star resorts, high fashion clothing, dinners in the right restaurants - nothing fills this void.
What is this void? 
Does everyone have it? 
What is its purpose? 

It is an echo that is drowning every other sound out..

What is my purpose? 
Why am I here? 
What is My gift to the world?

I see beauty in the most mundane of things. I wish to transform shame because it isn't even real. 

It's a manufactured response for no practical purpose other than for onselling  a solution.

Killer New Product

Have you ever felt guilty, ashamed and wanted to run away and avoid pain of some kind?
Have you ever felt like you were ill at ease? You were dis connected from your body somehow?
Have you ever felt like you stood out and did not fit in?
Have you ever felt like there was something so terribly wrong with you that you were an aberration?

How would you feel if you knew that everyone else felt the same way?
How would you feel knowing that you can only ever feel this way if you have a corresponding fantasy and belief that somehow you are in control of your life 100%?

Come on. We ALL have a fundamental belief that we can do better and that we shouldn't have gotten ourselves into this place in the first belief.
All of us.

Consider this?

What we feel guilt and shame and fear and regret and anger about is ACTUALLY a killer new product and publicity campaign.

Think about it........

It's Just a Beginning Again

We are living in a time of unprecedented change. Or so it seems. Never before on the history of the earth have we had easy access to so much information. Or so it seems.

One thing however cannot be googled and that is real live human connection. One thing that cannot be found in a WIKI is the accumulation of experience, knowledge, real time skill and ability to integrate information with function.

Sites and organizations across the globe, culture, belief structure and the Internet are marketing the End of the World. The fear generated in this campaign is a valuable driver in the sale of survival goods and services. When we work from our Reptilian brain we are more open to fear based sales techniques.

As nature exists in a constant creation/ destruction cycle, it will always be an end of some world and the beginning of a new one in a variety of forms.